BACK TO SCHOOL

Classes start today.  I'm not too excited about that fact.  I still get that nervous feeling in my stomach at the beginning of each semester.  I'm taking three classes this semester instead of the two classes I took last year. I'm taking Intro to Biology, Intro to Moral Issues, and Society and the Individual.  I;m trying to be as organized as possible.  I'm usually a mess.

This summer went by too fast.  It was an amazing summer though.  We went to Disney World for a week, which is one of my favorite places on earth (we might go there for our honeymoon!). We also went to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter for a day when we were in Orlando.  It was my second time to WWoHP and I love it there.

Even though I wish the school year wasn't starting, I am glad to be back to our tiny apartment.  Matt and I each stayed at our mom's for this past month to save on rent.  Now we're moved back home.  Just me, Matt, and Charlie.

WEDDING PLANNING

I'm getting married in 287 days.  In just 287 days I'll be a married woman.  I'll have a new last name.  Crazy.

I am nowhere ready.  I still need a DJ and a caterer.  I have to find bridesmaids dresses so I can figure out what shade of blue we're using.  I need to meet with the photographer and sign the contract.  The cake is a whole other thing.  It's hard to find a gluten free baker in a small town.

Luckily I already have my wedding dress (look here if you want to see it.  I'm not posting a picture in case Matt finds this.)  We have the venue booked too.

I guess bridesmaids dresses are my next project.  I'm thinking of getting them from David's Bridal since I have girls in two states and England.  I figured it'd be easier that way.  So far these are my favorites...

I'm just afraid our wedding won't live up to my expectations.  It's really been stressing me out.  You have no idea how much there is to plan until you're in the thick of it.

I'm starting to think we should just go down to the county courthouse.  I have Matt (and my dress) and that's all I really need.

CANCELING PLANS

I hate canceling on people.  I truly do.  It's honesty one of my least favorite things about having illnesses.  I'm not dependable.

I was supposed to be getting together with Matt and two other couples to go grab a bite to eat, but I didn't want to push it.

Could I have made it?  Yes.  Would I have felt like crap?  Oh yeah.

I always feel like I'm letting people down.  I hate this so much.

DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENTS

There are somethings you just don't want to have to discuss with your doctor. Not because it's awkward, but because the conversation may end up being a major bummer. This is one of those conversations. Today Matt and I spoke to my geneticist about having children. Were already know that there's a 50/50 chance any child we'll have will be born with Classical Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, but there are so many other questions we need answered before we decide if a "traditional" pregnancy is our best option.

Then we were thrown a curve ball. Maybe I don't even have Ehlers Danlos. Maybe it's some other hereditary connective tissue disorder.  Wait, what?

Then there's that chance that I could pass on Transposition of the Great Arteries, the heart defect I was born with. I knew there was the possibly the TGA was genetic.  My parents met a family whose identical twins were each born with it.  But they've apparently found three gene mutations that can cause it.  Lovely.

Three vials of my blood were drawn and and being sent to California to be tested for 11 defects including, Marfan Syndrome, Stickler Syndrome, Loeys-Dietz Syndrome, and the Vascular form of EDS.  There is also a gene mutation known to contribute to aortic dilation that my blood will be tested for.  In 6-8 weeks (or probably longer, since my insurance company is a giant pain in the ass) I will know if anything's been found.  If there are no red flags I'll be tested again for the three known defects that may cause TGA.

Dr. Fancomano said she'd bet there was a 50/50 shot that they'll find something in the first batch of tests.

Honesty, I'm frustrated.  Thousands of babies are born everyday with no issues.  Hell, I read the other day that a 10 year old in Columbia gave birth.  Tons of people who aren't fit to be parents have kids. Yet, Matt and I may not be able to have a healthy child someday.

Yes, adoption is an option, and were not ruling that out, but I want to be pregnant with a baby that has my eyes and Matt's nose.  I'm not even sure that I could emotionally handle raising a child I didn't give birth to.  A few weeks ago Matt's friend, who Grandma's cat is my cat's birth mom, said his Grandma would love to get her cat and our cat back together to see if he remembers his mom.  Without thinking I was like, "she's not his mom!  I'm his mom!"  If that's how I am with my cat child, how would I be with my child-child?  I actually refer to the cat that gave birth to my cat as his "birth mom."  I have jealously issues.

But, I guess there's no need to worry until we know what we're dealing with.  Just 6-8 weeks.

STARTING OVER

Hi!  I'm Katie.  I've blogged here before, and I've decided to start it up again.

I'm 24, planning my wedding to a great man named Matt, and in college studying social work.

I also have some medical issues.  But, they're just a tiny part of me.  I'm so much more.

I look forward to writing again and getting to know some people on here.

I'M BACK!

I forgot about this blog. I want to write and post photos, but I don't have a computer right now. Frankly, Blogger is impossible on iPad. We'll see how this goes. This blog will be about my life, my health, my upcoming wedding, my fiancé, cat, and family, my love of makeup and nail polish. In the meantime, check out my Tumblr and Instagram.